The real journey begin

Assalamualaikum.

new semester huh?

I'm in Semester 4 but not in Kirkby International College, but in IPG Kampus Sultan Abdul Halim. 

IPG? Goshh, never thought I would be here. Why? Because our lecturer in Kirkby (Miss Foo Ai Peng) once said, 

'kamu jangan pernah haraplah nak duduk maktab, sebab kontrak kamu dengan Kirkby 5 tahun, jadi jangan risau, kamu takkan ke mana-mana'.

So none of us have a thought about this.

So, the day came. Allow me to write in Malay a lil bit.

So, tersangatlah nervous bapak sampai tak tahu nak interpret sebab konon masuk IPG buat kali pertama. Konon junior. Padahal dah sem 4. Daftar dengan junior foundation haaaa.

Kome ade? Time daftar bebudak junior yang girls pakai baju kurung kain hitam and baju putih. Boleh bayang tak? alaaa yang ala-ala uniform sekolah rendah tu, tapi tudungnya hitamlah. 

tetiba kami geng Kirkby datang berpakaian serba hitam. ambik. Balck metal sangat. dah plan dah actuaaly nak pakai baju hitam tu sebab hitam mostly semua ada. 

So, daftarlah kami kami ni bersama junior. Tak kurang jugak yang memerhati pelik sebab apa kesnya junior pakai serba hitam? tapi lantaklah. Kami senior kot. Actually lah kan. hmm

Sekian mendaftarnya, orientasilah pulak? hmm. Sumpah aku dengar perkataan orientasi tu banyak kali dah dalam hidup. So nak naik muntah dengar kena terlibat dengan orientasi once again?

Sebab apa aku cakap aku dah muak??

1) Orientasi UNISZA (first universiti aku masok sebulan cukuplah kat sana)

2) Orientasi kat Kirkby International College (tempat seterusnya lah lepas UNISZA tuh, sempatlah bertiga tahun di sini)

3) AND NOW Orientasi IPG plak. Mana aku tak naim kuak?? 

Orientasi bukan sehari dua. Mau 3/4 hari gak. hmm.

So sorry , once aku dengar kena masuk orientasi, oh tersangatlah berang tapi apakan daya. Aku pikir balik, memang patot pon kena orientasi tu, sebab peraturan IPG segala yang aku sendiri tak familliar lagi. So, gagahkan ja lah diri ku yang layu ini.

First day was okay, adalah kan yang baik, adalah kan yang buat muka, ada jugaklah kan yang tanya sambil buat muka 'budak kirby ka? awat masok sini?'

Kami tawlah kehadiran kami di sini tidak diundang, kami juga tidak mahu mengundang diri kami di sana sebenarnya. But this is what we called destiny. 

I believe there is something that Allah has planned for us here. I'm hoping to be strong....

to be continue......

Blank minded

Well yeah, of course there are many sad moments and stories, along the last day we met.

 after knowing that 126 of us are going to be separated.....

including me.

But I just can't shed the tears because at that time I still can't believe the things that happened. I still believe that all these were just pranks.

And seeing friends around me, crying, shedding their tears, I told myself  'I can't cry here, I have to be strong'. So, on the day we separated, I just smile and even laugh on tiny little things which I rarely do. 

Along the way back from Putrajaya to Kedah, I reflected myself on what has happened, and what will going to happen.

I swear, it's literally a dull, sad, gloomy day. 

------

The day we are at home, we still contacted each other. 

For me, I'm glad along 3 years I went through in Kirkby, I learnt the meaning of life, the struggle of staying far from family, the challenges on the tasks and assignments, the treats from the lecturers (oh yeah, I'm kinda a naughty students; I usually protest, be late to class, sometimes skipped class, fights with librarians, with the 'mbak cafe' and so on), the unpredictable moments with friends; Gegaloks, Akobies and classmates. There used to be fights between us, but as life goes on, we reconciled and became friends back. (^_^)

that's all experience, right?

So 126 of us just wait for the day to become 'junior' once again in Teacher Training Institute (IPG). 

IPSAH, mu tunggu aku datang!

to be continue...

Shocked news

my holiday?

haha, not so-called holiday..

Why?

Because I just spend my holiday at home.

But nevermind, I don't mind. It's bonding time!! lah sangat.

 haha, it's bonding time when there is no internet at home. 

Got me?

So, my usual dull but not so-dull holiday was suprised with texts from my colleagues.

Actually, I was one of the people who got the new late. Because I muted all wechat and whatsapp group and I rarely go online on FB. But I saw this kinda shocked news from Twitter. 

so, those tweets are?

 'Weh, takkanlah masok IPG?'

'Omagoshh taknak berpisah dengan kirkbytes'

'BPG tengah troll kita ke?'

'Aku rasa BPG salah orang kot'

'Kesian kat kita, batch experiment'

and more.

I was like 'what the h*** are you tweeting?'

then I began to unmute all those wechat and whatsapp groups and tried to find out what's happening. 

So, the news are possibly true. 

I was like 100% shocked.

Can't believe those news. 

So, kirkbytes were asked to go to bangunan pendidikan at putrajaya on this one day.

Can't actually remember this date because I actually don't want to remember the date.

The day we are going to be separated. 

Lotsa things right?

hmm, to be continue.

Tick Tock Tickie Time

it's 8.48 pm in the evening,

and I'm reminiscing memories and things that had happened in my life until this secs.

My previous post really shocked me a lot.

Why?

Because I have wished something that I never thought it would happen to me. 

My year began with something usual, something extra normal, which is I wake up, prepare myself to class, go back to hostel, finishing assignments, chit chatting with friends, watching Korean movies, songs, pray then sleep. My days continue with same things, same people, same routine.

I always thought,

"What a dull life".

Thank Allah, in this dull life, I actually found some peace and interesting moments when I joined Usrah and other things that involve in 'pemantapan akidah'. WOW

So, I lived my life, day by day, hours by hours, minutes by minutes, seconds by seconds.

Until I had my Sem 3 examination, and had our holidays break.

So.......

What happened along the holiday???

To be continue.

Expectation

it's 2014.

I'm expecting some new things to happen in my life.

But I think, I may ended having life as super sorrow as before.

Thank Allah to send me a lot of good friends to me, to be beside me, to face this dull life together,.

Well, yeah.I shall say it's a very dull life.

Anyway, in this new year, I hope and expect more exciting things to happen in my life.

The thing regarding my college. hmm.

it will be a 'never ending story to be told'.

I just don't know the exact feeling right now.

Whether to stay focus in building my career as a teacher, or to just go with the flow.

my spirits are turning down.

its not a good thing.

I can't help myself to be stay calm, happy in this college,

I just thought that 'hey , my university-life would be awesome!'

yeah, that thought came out after listening to my senior's stories about being in the universities and yeah, media also plays well too.

I just can't tolerate the eager feeling about the excitement  to be in the university when I was still in the secondary school.

I just hope my life in secondary school would run faster so that I can feel the moment about being a university-student.

UNFORTUNATELY, its all went wrong.

never thought I would come here, 

having a same, common, bored, dull life here.

I didn't say about the students here.

well, students here are awesome, 

what I mean is the environment itself.

the same classes, lecturers, activities.

well come on!

we're teenagers.

we need something new,

something fresh,

something exciting,

something good to be memorise,

but...hmm.

I just can say these LOUDLY in my own little tiny dull heart.

I was hoping to change my life.

but HOW?

Allah knows that.

He knows me better than everyone does.

I'm sure, He has placed something very good in the future for me.

All I need to do is TO BE PATIENT.

so dear TENGKU ANIS DIANA SHAHIRA binti TENGKU NASIR,

take care of yourselves,

look after your iman, 

your ibadah,

your behave,

your attitudes,

think about your family.

inshaAllah, everything will run smoothly. 

Amin.

it's the beginning.

hey, its 

so, BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM.

may this year will be greater, better and brings more barakah than the years before. 

Amin.

^_^

Let the soul be.

Kusangka hidupku
Selamanya kelam
Terbelenggu ikatan tanpa manisnya cinta

Memaksa diriku
Menapaki jalan
Arah yang tak pernah ku mahu dalam hatiku

Kini kau pun hadir

Memberi cahaya
Membangunkan ku dari suramnya mimpi ngeri

Menuntun hatiku ke palung asmara
Seakan ku hidup kembali dari matiku

Engkaulah cinta
Yang selama ini aku cari

Ku Relakan Jiwa
Tuk menjadi penghuni dalam sangkar hatimu
Kerna engkaulah nadi yang menghidupkan aku
Yang mampu melarutkan setiap sepi hatiku

Hati bukan untuk dimiliki
Tapi untuk dicinta dan mencintai

Kurelakan jiwaku padamu
Engkaulah cinta
Yang selama ini aku cari

Ku relakan jiwa
Tuk menjadi penghuni dalam sangkar hatimu
Kerna engkaulah nadi yang menhidupkan aku
Yang mampu melarutkan setiap sepi hatiku

Seandainya waktu
Tak pernah pertemukan aku dengan dirimu
Akan kubiarkan mati hatiku selamanya
Sehingga kau datang membangunkan aku

#np Hazama : Ku relakan jiwa

Daurah~

Assalamualaikum..

Salam minggu orang mau ngundi~

tapi bukan untuk diri2 manusia yang lahir 1993 and 1992 dan ke bawah la ehh~ 

okay, about the tittle up there ----> DAURAH.

Do you know what is Daurah?

Actually, I also don't know the real meaning of it. I mean the actual meaning of that. But, its actually about a sharing or meeting among people to share some good knowledge or information. kinda like Usrah. err. I guessed.

But, what's for sure is daurah brings good to you. #serious talk.

From this daurah, I knew a lot about our Muslim's war such as Perang Badar and so on. I also got to know about hadiths and surah2 which bring deep meaning to people especially among Muslims.

Oh yeah, I also got to know about our responsibilities as Muslims to bring our life in the correct path or ways. Not only that, I did get to know about the history of prophets especially about Nabi Muhammad SAW. :)

*da macam buat refleksi dah, lantaklah~

some of my stuffs..

jaja, mirah, insyi. :)

yaya.:)

lalalalala~ 

hope to have this sort of acitivies in future..:)

Thanks Allah for choosing me to be in this way.

^_^

Pidato Antarabangsa~

Let's learn about Bahasa Malaysia!!

okay, don't get misunderstood. its about Bahasa Malaysia itself, not about the language. ehh?? Macam sama tapi tak. Okay, what I'm trying to say is not to learn about the structure or grammar or other sort of that thing. Its just about the Bahasa Malaysia, Get it?

Tahukah anda?

• Bahasa Malaysia merupakan bahasa kebangsaan negara Malaysia yang mengikuti piawaian ditetapkan Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka. 
• Bahasa Malaysia lebih daripada 80% kognitif dengan Bahasa Indonesia dan dituturkan asli oleh lebih daripada 10 juta orang. 
• Bahasa Malaysia dituturkan sebagai bahasa kedua oleh 18 juta orang, sebahagian besar daripada etnik minoriti negara Malaysia.
• Bahasa Malaysia juga merupakan bahasa KELIMA yang terbesar digunakan dalam rating dunia 

Hebat kan Bahasa Malaysia!!!

VERY PROUD OF IT!

*mesti anda2 yang membaca post saya berkata 'dah tu, dah tawu proud ngan bahasa Malaysia, asal tak guna BM je dalam blog?'

well, I'm gonna be an English teacher one day, In shaa Allah, so, I guess, with this kind of practices, I could enhance my English language. Hope so.

I hope, there's no one out there would be mistaken about this.

So, berbalik pada story yang sebenar-benarnya.

My friends and I went to this one event. It was Pidato Bahasa Melayu Antarabangsa. There were so many foreigners speaking in Bahasa Malaysia! Its OHSEM. REALLY OHSEM. The moment they began to speak, I felt touched. Never know that there were foreigners could be fluently speaking in our language.

;')

-end-

^_^

World Kidney Run!

WORLD KIDNEY RUN.

dengar macam gah je kan? well its an event held in Malaysia to create awareness among malaysian towards kidney. (okey, bunyi bahasa inggeris aku macam pelik, lantak lah.haha)

I don't go there to run, just for the voluntary works with my friends. Actually, I kinds missed those moments when I went for voluntary work. So, since, I'd done nothing on that Sunday, I guessed it would be great if I just go and spent my time there.

When everyone still had their sleep, we'd already go out and do this voluntary work,haha, (its kinda awesome actually)

4.30 a.m, we'd already been there (the venue). So early in the morning, 

I meant very early in the morning.

Everyone's eyes were like 

0_o........o_o........O_q.......o_Q

HAHAHA. okay, back to story.

so, our job was to give out waters to the runners. at about 7.45 a.m , the race started. And there's some runners managed to reach at about 8.45 a.m..So early.! I'm wondering, how can they be so fast.. it's for about 15 km I guessed. -,-

Okay, whatever it is, I just wanna said that I really enjoyed this 'water-giving' job. You feel like, you're really helping those people. They were so so so so exhausted, All they just wanted by the time they reached the 'finish-line' was WATER! WATER! 

So, when you give water to them , its feel like, you're saving people out from their 'barely able to live' moments. HAHAHA. *propa sungguh, 

 Can you see the bottles I was holding right there???? hehe

Let your head spin. ngehh

the volunteers of the day~ phewww

Tired? Of course we are. But, we were glad. I meant really glad doing that work. :)

Oh ya, and also I got some 'health check-up'...its free there!

And my health condition was ALHAMDULILLAH okay. I'm healthy!

^_^

thats all.

thank you.

Life

Hidup tak kan ke mana kalau tak dapat redha Allah dan ibu bapa.

Apa ertinya hidup,

jika masih berani bermain kata,

melawan perintahNya,

sombong dan angkuh,

mengiyakan yang tidak, 

menidakkan yang benar,

melihat kepada yang nyata, 

tapi berkelakuan buta pada yang zahirnya,

berdusta,

berfikiran durjana,

melawan yang mungkar.

Tiada ertinya wahai manusia.

Sedarkah anda?

Tanda-tanda akhir zaman sudahpun terpampang.

Mau di'tsunami'kan berapa kali?

Mau ditindas berapa kali?

Mau ditimpa malang berapa kali?

Mau ditipu berapa kali?

Berkali-kali? 

Sedarlah anda. 

*peringatan buat diri sendiri dan anda-anda jugak wahai umat Islam sedunia.:)